I cant study...

I cant study because I don't feel any urgency to study
I don't feel any urgency to study because I don't get stressed about my subjects
I don't get stressed about my subjects because I don't care about my subjects
I don't care about my subjects because I don't enjoy my subjects
I don't enjoy my subjects because I'm not passionate about my subjects
I'm not passionate about my subjects because I'm not passionate about Engineering
I'm not passionate about Engineering because I don't want to be an Engineer
I don't want to be an engineer because I don't know what I want to do...


Gary said...

Have you thought about taking time off of school so that you can figure out what you want to do? I would hate to see someone waste TONS of money on something that they aren't passionate about and isn't going to make them happy...

Endless Waltz said...

I completely understand how you are feeling right now Rob. I am in fact going through this same situation. I am at school and not doing well because I have no motivation and no drive to be there. I also have to clue what to do with my future =/.

In the end you are going to have to do what makes you happy. Doing what seems smart might not be.

I am here if you ever need to talk about anything, seriously anything, I have seen it all and been through much of it.

Dave said...

Wow, this sounds like me when I was back in uni. I wish I could say that I've got it figured out... but I don't.

I agree with the others. You need to try to find out what makes you happy and what fulfills you. Maybe think about (and write down) what things you are interested in and passionate about versus what you a good at (likewise, what you dislike and know you're bad at). Try to align the two, and from there figure out what you want to do.

If it's any comfort, during my time at uni, I:
- Started off with Computer Engineering
- Applied for, but eventually did not accept, a change to Commerce/Computer Sciece at the end of my first year
- Stuck it out for another year before realising I needed a change (and managed to get a 33/100 for one of my courses)
- Changed to Computer Science
- Changed to Computer Science (Honours) and started my thesis
- Hated my thesis and stopped half way, changing back to Computer Science.
Sometimes you need to try something to see if it's for you.

My advice for now would be to try and focus on your exam, and worry about the other stuff afterwards. Good luck!

Christopher Scott said...

I know how you are feeling. I ended up with a business degree though my heart was/is being a musician. But understand your degree doesn't mean you have to do that for a living. There are thousands of paths you'll be able to take and many careers you can have in your life. You're not stuck with any one path.


Dennis said...

Hey Rob,

I'm an engineer too, and I have felt that way NUMEROUS times when you're stuck at the library (with only your TI-83 for company) doing assignments and studying for tests in seamingly obscure subject matter.

I have recently graduated and after working in the real world for a little while, I wouldn't trade it for the world! Coming up and disscussing creative ideas, problem solving thats not all number crunching and memorization; being able to take pride, touch and feel a well done final result; and get paid for it!

So I guess what I'm saying is that there is often a blazing light at the end of the tunnel. (Excuse the Civil Engineering humor)

Later bro.

Dan said...

I've been in an university for 5 years now, and I still do not know what I want to do. I'm actually working on Civil Engineering now, but the requirments make it where I will not get out of school for another 5 years! I know the feeling about getting tired and impassionate with a subject, but just hang in there. Try thinking about the future benefits that will come your way if you just stick it out.

Doug said...

Does your school have an internship or co-operative education program where you can spend some time working in your field to get a taste of it? FWIW, I started off thinking I wanted to do the hard sciences (physics) but after the experience of working with some real physicists, I switched over to EE where I was much happier. I even did several co-op semesters working in EE just to be sure I liked it (I did) and to find what niche in EE I liked best. When I graduated, I had the benefit of being sure I was getting into a career I liked.

Anyway, consider trying an internship or something to see if you like civil eng.

PS: Hating your major when studying for exams is pretty normal. ;-)

Johanna Marion said...

You better find out what you wanna do, man. Be adventurous and by that, there will be a possibility that you might discover the things that you'd be passionate about. It's really not fun to study things you dislike! However, if those are needed in life, well, you just gotta deal with it! You will face struggles and feel lazy, but in the future, you won't regret it. :)

Johanna Marion